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Stretch + Move

March 15, 2017

She warily bows her form to the earth
and humbly places her palms upon the ground
accepting the need to surrender
knowing she can no longer fight
the persistent anger
the heavy sadness
the paralyzing anxiety
and the fear buried deep beneath it all –
knowing she can no longer fight
herself.

As her body
stretches
moves
and
twists –
she bends
but she does not break.

As her focus turns inward
and to her physical being
she begins to gain solid ground
and
it’s in this moment
that she’s reminded
of how supported she is
how safe she is
and how much stronger she is
than she ever gave herself credit for.

Relationship Spirituality Wellness

Meditation On Release

March 7, 2017

Today I say goodbye
to the versions of myself
that seek validation
acceptance
and permission.
The parts of me that
rationalize
apologize
and explain
for fear of being misunderstood
forgotten
and ignored.

I hereby release the need to control the circumstances around me and understand the reasoning behind why things happen the way they do.

I hereby release the need to unravel the clues, figure it out, and fix things and instead I allow life to unfold naturally.

I hereby choose to untangle myself from the binds that restrain me to one place in which I cannot change, grow, and learn and instead I humble myself to the mysteries of the universe.

I hereby let go of tendencies to attach myself to things, people, emotions, thoughts, patterns, and addictions that hang onto my body, weigh me down, and make it hard to breathe.

I hereby revert to love.
In all instances – love.
Not for naivety or from ignorance but because I know it’s the only thing that truly heals.

xo

Relationship Spirituality

Love Notes

February 7, 2017

I’d like to know what puts a smile on your face
so that I can see your eyes light up for me
so that I can pull you out of a funk
so that I can make you glow.

Show me the side of you that isn’t afraid to explore the world
for fear that you might unveil a truth you weren’t willing to face.
Release your inhibitions long enough to see what’s possible
sit in that space with me
and feel what it means to let go –
if even for a minute.

I want to know what scares you
and what drives you
(those may be one and the same?)
what you need to feel real
and what you need to feel whole
so that I can help bring you back to centre
when you’re split in two.

I’d like you to know what it feels like to be me for a day
to find your way through the thoughts that cross my mind –
the subtle and the overt notions in which my obsessions lie.

I wish you could step into my shoes
to see the world as I do
to understand that
while I may be sure of nothing
I’m sure of everything
all at the same time.

I need you to know when I crave connection
and when I need to disconnect for my sanity
and that the two aren’t necessarily mutually exclusive.

Show me the side of you that understands my perspective
and I will show you limitless love.

And even after we’ve been together
for months
and years
promise me that
we’ll get to know each other
all over again.

~xo

Learning Lifestyle Spirituality Wellness

Personal Practices, Or, How We Retain Our Sanity

January 26, 2017

It recently dawned on me that I’ve let my beloved routine slide. Leading into the holidays, during, and after, I put the little things that make a big difference to my sanity on the back-burner. Starting my day with 40 minutes of yoga? Chucked to sleep in longer. A half hour meditation before bed to settle my mind? Replaced by iPhone surfing, a late-night movie or passing out early. The regular soaks in the tub with candles, a good book, epsom salts, and the occasional glass of wine? Easily dismissed for ‘more important things’.

It hit me though. All these routine things I do, I do because it’s part of my own personal practice – it’s the combination of things I know work for me. And when I’m not doing these things, I can feel it in every cell of my body.

I practice because sometimes I don’t love other people. Situations. Myself.

I practice because sometimes I find it hard to breathe and I know this is because I often choose to suppress my emotions for fear of ‘feeling too hard’ or ‘expressing too much’.

I practice because when I don’t, I feel lost. Bored. Like something is missing.

I practice because my thoughts can often get the best of me, pulling me in different directions and deeper into the stories I’ve created about other people. Situations. Myself.

I practice because movement is healing and breath is grounding.

I practice so that when I laugh when people say, “gurl, you look like you have your shit together”, I feel like less of a hypocrite because really…

Do any of us really have our shit figured out?

I practice precisely because I don’t have my shit together and if change is the only constant, how can we ever really know everything. Ever?

I practice because I’m doing the best I can and I’m a work in progress.

I practice because I often feel others’ anxiety/fear/anger/sadness and will often mistake it for my own.

I practice because I’m relearning. And learning what’s important happens when I’m less attentive to all the other noise.

I practice because I often forget the lesson.

I practice because repetition ingrains the lessons deeper into the cells of my body.

I practice because it reminds me of how much of this shit ain’t real. And what is.