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Relationship, Spirituality, Wellness

Meditation On Release

Today I say goodbye
to the versions of myself
that seek validation
acceptance
and permission.
The parts of me that
rationalize
apologize
and explain
for fear of being misunderstood
forgotten
and ignored.

I hereby release the need to control the circumstances around me and understand the reasoning behind why things happen the way they do.

I hereby release the need to unravel the clues, figure it out, and fix things and instead I allow life to unfold naturally.

I hereby choose to untangle myself from the binds that restrain me to one place in which I cannot change, grow, and learn and instead I humble myself to the mysteries of the universe.

I hereby let go of tendencies to attach myself to things, people, emotions, thoughts, patterns, and addictions that hang onto my body, weigh me down, and make it hard to breathe.

I hereby revert to love.
In all instances – love.
Not for naivety or from ignorance but because I know it’s the only thing that truly heals.

xo

Relationship, Spirituality

Love Notes

I’d like to know what puts a smile on your face
so that I can see your eyes light up for me
so that I can pull you out of a funk
so that I can make you glow.

Show me the side of you that isn’t afraid to explore the world
for fear that you might unveil a truth you weren’t willing to face.
Release your inhibitions long enough to see what’s possible
sit in that space with me
and feel what it means to let go –
if even for a minute.

I want to know what scares you
and what drives you
(those may be one and the same?)
what you need to feel real
and what you need to feel whole
so that I can help bring you back to centre
when you’re split in two.

I’d like you to know what it feels like to be me for a day
to find your way through the thoughts that cross my mind –
the subtle and the overt notions in which my obsessions lie.

I wish you could step into my shoes
to see the world as I do
to understand that
while I may be sure of nothing
I’m sure of everything
all at the same time.

I need you to know when I crave connection
and when I need to disconnect for my sanity
and that the two aren’t necessarily mutually exclusive.

Show me the side of you that understands my perspective
and I will show you limitless love.

And even after we’ve been together
for months
and years
promise me that
we’ll get to know each other
all over again.

~xo

Learning, Lifestyle, Spirituality, Wellness

Personal Practices, Or, How We Retain Our Sanity

It recently dawned on me that I’ve let my beloved routine slide. Leading into the holidays, during, and after, I put the little things that make a big difference to my sanity on the back-burner. Starting my day with 40 minutes of yoga? Chucked to sleep in longer. A half hour meditation before bed to settle my mind? Replaced by iPhone surfing, a late-night movie or passing out early. The regular soaks in the tub with candles, a good book, epsom salts, and the occasional glass of wine? Easily dismissed for ‘more important things’.

It hit me though. All these routine things I do, I do because it’s part of my own personal practice – it’s the combination of things I know work for me. And when I’m not doing these things, I can feel it in every cell of my body.

I practice because sometimes I don’t love other people. Situations. Myself.

I practice because sometimes I find it hard to breathe and I know this is because I often choose to suppress my emotions for fear of ‘feeling too hard’ or ‘expressing too much’.

I practice because when I don’t, I feel lost. Bored. Like something is missing.

I practice because my thoughts can often get the best of me, pulling me in different directions and deeper into the stories I’ve created about other people. Situations. Myself.

I practice because movement is healing and breath is grounding.

I practice so that when I laugh when people say, “gurl, you look like you have your shit together”, I feel like less of a hypocrite because really…

Do any of us really have our shit figured out?

I practice precisely because I don’t have my shit together and if change is the only constant, how can we ever really know everything. Ever?

I practice because I’m doing the best I can and I’m a work in progress.

I practice because I often feel others’ anxiety/fear/anger/sadness and will often mistake it for my own.

I practice because I’m relearning. And learning what’s important happens when I’m less attentive to all the other noise.

I practice because I often forget the lesson.

I practice because repetition ingrains the lessons deeper into the cells of my body.

I practice because it reminds me of how much of this shit ain’t real. And what is.

Authenticity, Lifestyle, Spirituality, Wellness

Intentions, Wishes + Focus (Or Why I Don’t Make Resolutions)

The beginning of a new year can always inspire the possibilities of new beginnings and fresh starts. And while I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that, I’m not a huge fan of the fact that we’re conditioned to think that we need to wait for a new year to begin to be a new ‘us’.

By all means, it’s important that we take the opportunity to look back over the past year and give ourselves a heavy dose of gratitude for all the good that came our way. The good we brought into our lives by pursuing our goals, stretching our boundaries and growing through it all – those things add up to make us who we are.

There’s magic in taking the time to recognize the places in which we can continue to stretch and grow. But I don’t think we necessarily have to wait for the calendar to turn to decide to make a fresh start.

So rather than set resolutions (that I’ve proven to myself to break time and time again) I prefer to look back over the year and focus on how I want to feel in the upcoming days, or months – recognizing that this is something I do fairly regularly to keep myself in-check and knowing that I can tweak whenever I feel it’s necessary, regardless of the calendar day.

And so, I thought I would send some intentions and wishes your way to get you thinking about what you want to feel, experience and move through over the next little while, knowing that you have every right to redefine, rediscover and reposition yourself whenever, however, and as often as you like.

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May you connect with the world around you, both that which you can see and touch, and the ethereal and intangible – whatever that may mean to you.
May you tap into that intuitive knowing that will guide your actions with authenticity, clarity, and in tandem with what will fill you up.
May you speak from a place of honesty, compassion and kindness – speaking your truth regardless of how it may be received on the other end.
May you move with love – love for self, others, and the world.
I wish you confidence, a strength of being that encourages you to be more and more of who you are in this world with every passing day.
I wish you creative endeavours and pursuits and the ability to dive deep into the things that will bring you pleasure and fulfill your desires.
May you know the light is present even in your darkest moments and may you find your feet solid on even the most shaky terrain.

I wish you love.